And even better, I'm writing! Not here so much, obviously, but writing fiction. Mostly fanfiction to be frank, because I'm having trouble figuring out where to go with my own works, but it's proving to be excellent practice as well as a major ego boost. "How is it an ego boost" you ask? Simple, for the first time in my life, I have posted completed fiction works online at a site where they can be easily read. And people have read them, they like them! As of this moment my scribbles have been read by 89 people in 17 countries, across 5 continents!
This may not sound like a big deal, but I have never, ever let random strangers into the sporadic workings of my twisted mind before. The reason I'm not including this blog when I say that is that this is more upfront to me, I feel more in control of the impression that comes across. When I write fiction it isn't just my surface thoughts and opinions that come across, it's a deeper vulnerability, something that my mind has created without me being able to rationalize it. My opinions are usually logical; my imagination is anything but, and because of that I'm often afraid of getting a reaction along the lines of "that is what goes on in your head? FREAK!"
That's why this is so monumental for me, because I'm exposing my raw psyche to the world. At least that's how it feels. And because I've been getting a positive response I have been so incredibly motivated to continue. It's amazing! Anyway, that's all for now.
Oh, and in case anyone actually reads my blog and wants to read my fanfictions, you can find them at http://www.fanfiction.net/~lyeundu .
